Dear God,
It is me again. I hope all is awesome with you. I know it probably is – after all you are the Big G. However, I never know how to start a letter to you without writing to you as if you were an actual person. The irony is that I know you are not a real person but there is no need to get into that now.
Then again, you know me better than I know myself, so this behavior probably does not strike you as being odd. (Seriously, how many people do you know walk around telling others that they are a Jesus loving Buddhist who believes all religions are equal because God loves everyone?)
Now if only the people around me would realize that I am not odd, then things would really be cool. But I will get into that some other time.
Well, God, you will be happy to know that I am writing to you not because I have this long list of demands (aren’t you proud of me?) but rather to express my gratitude for where I am in my life.
Many times throughout this journey I have had so far, things you made me experience looked to be totally weird. For example, as you know, I have often asked why did I have to live in New Jersey? Of all the places you could have placed me, you put me in New Jersey.
For years, I could not wait to get out of the place and now I am back here. I was pretty upset about this fact but then I came to see that I needed to be here in order to learn more about myself.
It is easy to like yourself when you are surrounded with people who are more like you. To be a free spirit in a place where the only concept of a spirit is one from a liquor store can be quite challenging.
Being a vegetarian in New Jersey is not a walk in the park either. To find places to eat can be a challenge and don’t get me started on the fact that no one ever seems to smile. Why is that? I know that this has nothing to do with location but why is it that people actually do seem happier in places like Hawaii or Sydney or India?
Anyway, I have made my peace with being in New Jersey. I am also happy to report that I have made my peace with the fact that I am working as a lawyer. When you had me go back to that profession, I was shocked. You know I swore I would never do that and yet I sat again for the bar exam and am now working as a lawyer.
Each day is a challenge to go into an office where I feel so alone. I know I am not alone because there are people there but again, it is hard to be a free spirit when you are surrounded with a bunch of cranky pants who think life is this hard and horrible journey.
Forgive me if I am complaining but there are moments when I want to stand on my desk and scream at the top of my lungs: “lighten up people, life is much more than a stupid paycheck”. Actually, I sometimes want to do that on the train, in the supermarket and in the middle of the highway.
That said, I know that I am blessed to have a job that enables me to pay my bills and to have the means to do the things that I love such as writing, buying books, music, food, having a beautiful apartment with my husband and so much more.
Maybe you want me in that office so that I can appreciate how awesome it is to be me and to give me enough material so that I can use it in my writing. You can be pretty sneaky, I get that now but can you be a little bit more obvious at times?
For example, why do you have us learn to listen to our inner voice? Why not make our inner voice so loud that it drowns out all the other junk that surrounds us?
I guess your reasons for not doing that are because you want us to actually choose to listen to our inner voice. I get that you are big on free will but sometimes we want you to answer things for us. However, there is no lesson learned if something is handed to you on a silver platter, right?
I realize that I am rambling but you love me unconditionally and I am really happy about that. So many times in my life I have met people who went running in the other direction at the mere indication that there was a flaw or an issue or whatever. So thank you for loving me despite all my issues that make me the person that I am.
Thank you for the sunshine, grass, cute little birds, computers, email, water, clean water, Amazon.com, the beach, the ocean, fudge, chocolate, noodles, mobile phones, the Internet, rainbows, clouds, love, laughter, ice cream, Starbucks, Whole Foods, ducks, my husband, my dad, my friends, my blog, the people who read my blog and so many more wonderful things that make life a fun ride.
I also want to thank you for helping me to see that ultimately life is about love. All the other stuff is just stuff that truly does not mean a thing. Thank you for making me see that the power that is you, is in me also. I am a co-Creator with you and that is pretty awesome.
At this stage in my life, I have come to see that being alive is one of the greatest things ever. When I first studied Buddhism, I remember reading about how it is such a blessing to come in human form. I never got that and now I do.
The world is filled with so much beauty. There are moments when it takes my breath away but then there are moments when I see what my fellow humans are doing and it breaks my heart.
The reasons for such things may never be known to me and I am at peace with that for I see I am only responsible for how I choose to be in the world. Each moment is an opportunity to start fresh and I learned that a few years ago. It is not my place to fix someone or to judge someone but rather to just allow other people to be who they are and love them unconditionally.
Well, I have to run. Until next time, keep smiling!
Lots of love,
Nadia
Now it is your turn, if you were to write a letter to the Universe or God or the Force or whatever term you love to use, what would you say? I would love to hear your thoughts!
Note: To read more about the reasons behind my new schedule change, click here.
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Hi Nadia,
I feel so connected to your letter and writing. Life is a journey, and one we’re so privileged to be on. I want you to know, my friend, that being here is such a good place for me to be as I travel on the life journey I’m on…
Dear God,
Wow, our world is such an amazing place! What You’ve created here is so awesome. Awe-inspiring really. And I’m more aware of this each and every day – of the little things that I maybe haven’t noticed always as I’ve traversed through my life. A blade of grass growing. The instincts of animals. The moon orbiting around our earth. Gravity. The deep caring and compassion of people in times of need.
Really there’s so, so much – that fills me with awe! Our world is so amazing!
And yet – it’s all too easy to get caught up in the motions of life – and not even see these things. I used to be there. And as I’ve evolved, as I’ve grown into a deeper connection with myself – I’ve come to see that when I’m connecting within, with my soul – these motions of life go away. And life really becomes about truly being in the moments. Fully conscious.
God, know that having You by my side makes all the difference. (I’m guessing you already know this, since you know me so well already!). Thank You for walking with me on this journey – on days that aren’t the best and on those moments of elation – and everything in between.
.-= Lance´s last blog ..Painting The Masterpiece of Our Life =-.
Hi Lance,
When I started writing this letter, I had no idea it would be a post. After I was done, I looked at it and thought it would be a good post. I figured I am not alone in feeling certain things and I wanted to share where I found myself at that particular moment.
Thank you for sharing your letter. It was beautiful…as is everything you write, my friend!
Dear God,
Thank you for my beautiful sister, Nadia, who even though we’ve never met, resonates with all the parts of me I want to know better. Thank you, too, for allowing me to learn that everything I see is a reflection of my thoughts. Lastly, thank you for love – the all-powerful, all-healing, totally transformative miracle salve that can be applied to anything and everything, making it glow with your likeness.
Until soon,
Megan
.-= Megan “JoyGirl!” Bord´s last blog ..For Love Or Money =-.
Hi Megan,
Thank you so much for calling me your beautiful sister! That made my morning considering I am still dealing with this yucky respiratory infection.
I also appreciate you sharing your letter with all of us. It was truly from the heart and love totally rocks!
I needed to hear many of these words again. Thank you!
.-= Jim H. Moreno´s last blog ..How Much Does it Cost When You Pay Attention? =-.
Hi Jim,
Welcome to Happy Lotus! I know you pingback to my site a lot and thank you so much for all those pingbacks. I really appreciate it.
I am happy that the post spoke to you. That makes me happy! Hope all is awesome!
Dear God,
Today is D-day for us… the day of the big decision. We set this deadline of July 15 about two months ago, and here it is! To be honest, I didn’t expect it to be so soon. Time flies when you have life-changing choices to make. I know it’s a little selfish on my part, ’cause lots of people are in more desperate need, but… if you could hold our hand through this, that would be insanely awesome.
Thanks!
me
.-= Lisis ´s last blog ..Letters From Readers: Healing “Toxic” Family Relationships =-.
Hi Lisis,
Time sure does fly, doesn’t it? Thank you so much for sharing what you are going through with everyone here. I know we have talked about this via email so I won’t repeat myself. What I will say, as someone who has gone through something similar, it is the best experience and life has a way of working things out for the best. I have no doubt about that at all. So I am sure you will all be awesome.
You also know where to find me if you need a reminder too! 
Hey Nadia,
Thanks for sharing your letter to the Big Guy (or Gal). I am able to read your letter of gratitude, which makes me just 1 out of 100 who is fortunate enough that my basic needs of food, shelter and water are met, so that I can get on the internet to read your letter, and I have the time and means to expand spiritually. I am very grateful for this accident of geography and fate.
k
.-= Kaushik´s last blog ..My Really Big Marketing Mistake or What is this Site all About? =-.
Hi Kaushik,
Isn’t it amazing how so many of us take for granted that not everyone has adequate shelter, food or even water? You are right, it is a huge blessing to be the one of out of one hundred. Thank you for sharing all the things you are grateful for…spiritual awareness and the ability to focus on that area is another great gift!
Dear Nadia,
I don’t think you are odd at all, in fact the more I learn about you, the more I like you! Your letter to God is beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with us. You made me crack up with your question about why he didn’t make our inner voices really loud. Have a wonderful day…reading this has certainly made mine!
Dear God,
Thank you for my journey. There have been so many lovely lessons nestled in all my experiences, big and small. Thank you for your persistence with the lessons which are most important—and for which I have sometimes been slow to grasp! Thank you for bringing me to this blogging community where open hearts abide. I am grateful! -Jodi
.-= Jodi at Joy Discovered´s last blog ..An Elephant, a Rope, and Programmed Beliefs =-.
Hi Jodi,
I am happy to know that I am liked!
Let’s face it, we all want to be liked by at least someone. I am also happy that letter provided some humor. As much I believe that we have to make the most out of life, you have to have some humor along the way.
By the way, since you could not find those magazines, you can order single issues on Amazon for a reduced price. You may want to check that out. If that does not work, let me know.
I like how you share your thought process and lessons.
There’s something about being human and alive that makes all the difference.
Whenever I find myself getting too cerebral or too side-lined, I remind myself life’s not a specator’s sport and I dive in. It’s the colorful experiences and people in your life that really make life so unique.
.-= J.D. Meier´s last blog ..PM Skills for Life =-.
Hi JD,
I am an open book with emotions displayed freely on its cover or sleeves depending on how you look at the book!
Sometimes you have to jump off the cliff and trust that you will land on your feet. I think that is what makes life fun. And yes, the people who are in your life definitely make the ride so much more enjoyable.
What a good idea to be encouraged to connect with God for real, here is mine;
Dear God.
You must have a huge heart to put up with us and the way we throw your gifts back into your face and how we trash your beautiful creation. However I am a parent and I too am patient with my children, so maybe I do understand it at a smaller scale.
I wanted to tell you that I am committed to live a life both you and I can look at with a smile on our face. Over the 10 years I have taken a lot of time to understand life from a persepctive of love and that we are all one and I think it is paying off. I also acknowledge our cooperation, something I too am finally coming to grips with. It shows because my mind has become the servant of my heart and I am taking more and more decisions that add value to all rather than to my own ignorant ‘ego me’ who was always on the look out for what is in it for me and operating from fear rather than love.
I want to thank you for your patience while waiting for me till I caught up, like I have waited patiently for my own daughters to catch up.
I love you, Wilma.
.-= Wilma Ham´s last blog ..Is this the reason we like firewalking and abseiling so much? =-.
Hi Wilma,
Welcome to Happy Lotus! Thank you so much for sharing your letter with all of us. I loved all that you wrote. It was very heartfelt and beautiful. It is so nice to see how we all reach similar conclusions and yet each of our paths are unique.
I liked this post very much and how you moved through you thought, ideas and actions.
Letters are good, emotions are good, processes are good and gratitude is the beginning.
Thank you for your good writing and sharing, it was a lovely pause here today
.-= Patricia´s last blog ..Part II: The case for Eliminating Wall Street =-.
Hi Patricia,
Thank you so much for the kind words. I agree that gratitude is just the beginning. It is one of those things that the more you have of it, the more you become of what surrounds you.
Hope all is well!
I am sure God would be very proud and happy to receive a letter of this caliber. You set a good example for everyone else..
Glad I stumbled upon your blog. Stumbled and added to my feedreader.
.-= Shamelle- TheEnhanceLife´s last blog ..Less Busy, More Productive – Is It Possible? =-.
Hi Shamelle,
Welcome to Happy Lotus! Thank you so much for all the kinds things you said. Please know that I also am thrilled that you Stumbled my post and added my blog to your feedreader.
I hope that all is awesome with you! Have a beautiful day.
Hi Nadia .. thanks for that wonderful letter post .. it’s great and I’ve just read your reasons for getting started and the hows and the whys and the whens .. they all make sense. I’m glad to hear you’ve taken 18 years over your journey .. I don’t feel quite so “poor” ‘wandering around in my spatial disawareness’ as I’m only really setting out on my spiritual journey.
I love having the camaraderie of bloggers with similar ideas and can learn and grow from you all.
I too started a blog about the relationship with my mother .. but it’s not me, nor am I ‘qualified’ or interested in that route, it was too personal, too detailed and we’re both way too independent, so those thoughts weren’t available, and I don’t have children – so that experience isn’t there. So I dropped it.
However my mother having had 3 major strokes over 2 years ago lives on and during the process I wrote letters to friends and family passing on happy information, fun stories and positive vibes about how we were doing .. providing my Mum with laughter, while also getting back letters, cards and postcards on how positive I’ve managed to be, how cheery the letters are how much pleasure the letters seem to be to all recipients.
So someone directed me in that direction, and I’m sure it’s a Guiding Hand from the bright blue sky, and I’m truly grateful. I love writing my stories, they’re different, I can stretch myself in my learning and seemingly capture others’ imaginations too.
My mother and I have been blessed and it certainly has provided a source of ‘entertainment’ for my Ma, when I can write about her past, or things we did as children .. they bring a smile to her face – which is the most wonderful gift as a daughter I can provide her at this time.
I’m grateful to the higher being, and I’m grateful to be a part of this fantastic group of people – it’s such a lucky world we live in .. we can find each other, learn from each other, inspire each other and are blessed through this communication in so many ways ..
I salute you all .. Hilary Melton-Butcher
Positive Letters
.-= Hilary´s last blog ..Wine, Dyes and Swans .. =-.
Hi Hilary,
Good for you for all that you are doing with your mother. My mom and I were really close although our relationship was really tense too. It is hard to describe. We were more like sisters and less like mother and daughter. I often think I was more the mother than the daughter. Our relationship was far from perfect but despite all the stuff, I really loved my mom and she loved me in her own way. When she was diagnosed with cancer, my husband and I were were living about 900 miles away and we left to head back here so that I could take care of my mom.
I was her caregiver as she dealt with the cancer and we were all with her when she passed. So I know how tough it can be to watch someone you love go through some physical stuff. I think it is wonderful that you are sharing the journey via your blog. That is a great act of love and you should be commended for it. Funny enough, many people used to comment to me about how great it was that we left everything so I could care for my mother and that always struck me as being odd. Isn’t that what love is supposed to do?
So your actions are a great example of love.
You are so right about how wonderful it is to be a part of such a wonderful community. I have been so blessed to meet so many wonderful people from all over the world. How I wish you all lived near me so we all could go out and have fun! However, distance is only an illusion and I see that. Some people may be in the same room and thousands of miles apart. While some people may be thousands of miles apart and yet so close. Blogging has proved to me yet again that that belief is so true.
Have a beautiful day!
Hi Nadia .. many thanks for that personal message – I do what I can and my Mum has said she couldn’t have coped without me .. we weren’t that comfortable with each other before she was ill, but we had the same outlook, interests and before that it was all fine .. now I just adjusted and said to myself she was the baby (as she’s confined to bed and cannot do anything for herself) and I had to ‘do it all’ – ie everything that the nurses weren’t doing or didn’t do.
The one person I have brought into our lives is a lady I describe as a healer, she is very spiritual and has connected hugely with my Ma .. really as a 2nd daughter .. so Janice is fantastic and I know will be there for my Mum in due time, and for me!
I jump the pond occasionally .. so perhaps I’ll meet up with some of you, which would be fantastic .. but it’s so brilliant we can be on the same wave length across the oceans.
It’s so fantastic that your husband agreed with you and you both came to your mother for her final days – it’s definitely something not to be missed .. it’s opened so many doors for me, and taught me so much – I continue to learn .. but the puzzle is there for me: I just need to put it together.
My uncle (the widower of my father’s sister) says ‘love is all’ .. I support him too with my stories, but he’s there for me helping me through tough times. I always remember his words – and as you say it is odd that it appears ‘abnormal’ our care for our dear ones by others.
I’m just trying to work out how an ipod works .. so I can sit quietly with Mum, as that’s all she often wants now .. just for me to be there .. & I’m a doer – so I find that tough .. I can’t read, as if she opens her eyes I can’t read the book .. but I can listen to some audio books or music depending on my mood. It’s trial and error .. see what’s best as we go along.
The most important thing is to be there for our near and dear ..
Thanks so much – so glad we’ve ‘touched sides’, made contact etc .. long may it last and with so many other wonderful people too .. have a great legal day! I’m just so pleased you were able to give that extra special time to your mother ..
with thoughts and love
Hilary Melton-Butcher
Positive Letters
.-= Hilary´s last blog ..Wine, Dyes and Swans .. =-.
Hi Hilary,
You have such a great attitude, it is wonderful. My whole experience in being a caregiver was one of the best teachers ever. I always tell people that my mom gave me many gifts when she was alive but those last six months were the best present she ever gave me.
I know it sounds odd since the ending was not a happy one because she did survive the cancer. However, I learned a lot from her. She handled her experience with dignity. She had her share of regrets about her life and I saw how she struggled with certain realizations in addition to her body falling part.
Life works in interesting ways and to me the whole experience made me a better person. Not that I was a bad person before but it made me aware of so much. It helped me to heal and truly helped me to find the happiness that I so much was craving.
I think if I did not have that experience, this blog would not be here. Like I said, life works in interesting ways.
If you do come across the pond, definitely let me know. It would be wonderful to meet up and talk some more in person. I would love that.
Sending you lots of love and blessings! Have a beautiful day!
Hi Nadia! This was precious! Talk about getting our creative juices flowing this morning, wow!
Dear God,
Thank you so much for making us beings with the capacity to choose – and then laying all these choices out for us continually (really, the overwhelming abundance of choices wears me out God!). I know I’ve made some doozies that made you cringe, but I SO appreciate the forgiveness and hugs. How nice that you give me more chances by disguising the same darn thing over and over til I “get it”. Yeah, you have given me enough years to see your sneaky plan!
Thank you for refreshing my vision when my eyes blur with tears. Thank you for the clarity of thought (could use a little more, please) that enables me to communicate lessons learned and wisdom gained from surviving your little tests. Thank you for the health and energy that allows me to help others (I know that is what it’s for). Thank you for the challenges that developed spiritual muscles so I can stand strong in my beliefs, and to be ok if I’m alone or different. And thank you for inventing duct tape. It fixes a myriad of things and its handy to slap on my mouth lest I say stuff that Mr. Monkey Mind or Ms.Effervescent Ego want to spew out inappropriately! And thanks for lotsa other stuff………….too many to mention on Nadia’s blog!
.-= suzen´s last blog ..Life in The Twilight Zone? =-.
Hi SuZen,
Your letter made me smile and made me laugh! You have such a great talent in finding humor through it all. That is awesome!
Isn’t God great in how lessons are repeated until you finally get it? As Oprah once said, first you get the pebble, then the brick, then the brick wall, and if that does not work, you get the wrecking ball!
Duct tape is pretty handy and I have had to use it over the years when I so much wanted to say certain things and realized it was far wiser to be silent! Thank you for the reminder of this blessed item.
Dear God, I want to thank you first for loving me. As a child growing up in the church, I remember hearing that we are to love God first, over all others. I remember thinking that I did love you, but how could I love something over all others that I also feared? I felt you were somewhare out there and perhaps I was not worthy. For some reason that did not feel safe….
The ocean and the woods became my ‘church’ and you where there with love and acceptance. I still feel your amazing awesome power when I go to my ‘church’ the ocean or woods- this is the ideal place to center myself, but I also know you are always there.
Me and your son Jesus have always had an awesome relationship. Jesus, thank you for being there for me always. Remember that every night I would have reoccurring nightmares because of the stress and instability in my home, I thought perhaps I was doing something to cause this.
I knew there was one place I could go, with Jesus. I would say the simple Jesus mantra that I knew ‘Jesus loves me this I know, for the bible tells me so’ over and over until I fell to sleep -and Jesus, you would be there to comfort me. I have always known there was a place I could go when the burdens and traumas of this world SEEM to much to bare- and you always guide me through with your unbelievable light and love that is always unconditional – my gratitude for that has no bounds. I know you know this, but I want to say it again, I love you, I love you, I love you.
I believe that you love everyone- your grace is available to everyone. You ARE love and are teaching me more about love as I reach to you for support. When I look in with love and compassion this is when I am the closest to you- fear emotions take me further away and make me feel distant from you. I am learning to trust you and myself on my path to live my passion and purpose. I know you understand that it is not religion dogma that matters, it is our connection. The path is one of unconditional love. You are always with me.
Sometimes I wish everything would be easy, that I would just “get it’ and my petty little trails would dissipate. But that would not be much of a journey would it? How could I serve others if I had not experienced any trials of my own? How could I appreciate fully all of the wonderful gifts of this world if I had not also experienced the trials?
I used to think the blessings are on one side and the trials are on the other, but now I think that they are connected- that you do the hard work of it all to get to that place of the gift- perhaps not only so you can appreciate it, but so you can recognize it and learn as well, it is part of it not separate.
I understand that no one just ‘knows’ ; when you are learning to dive you proceed to do a belly flop right in the middle of the pool, everyone at the pool turns to look and you have drawn the attention of everyone- they may try to help, comfort, give advice, or even tease and ridicule you. But at some point you learn to dive well, you get that confidence and you are a lot less likely to make such a huge splash and draw so much attention. I am still belly flopping, but I know you are there encouraging me to learn how to dive gracefully.
Thank you for your grace, my beautiful children, home, family, earth and all of my blessing as well as my trials.
I believe you love everyone on this earth regardless of race, religion, where we were born, upbringing , behavior — all of it. You love us and I am thankful for that. Amen.
.-= Angie´s last blog ..0711ddebe7fd2b92.jpg =-.
Hi Angie,
What a beautiful and heartfelt letter. Thank you so much for sharing it with all of us. I am so blessed and grateful that you are my friend!
I could relate to so much of it. The belly flopping in the best that resonated the most because I need to become more masterful in my diving too. However, the beauty about spirituality, is that we are loved unconditionally and as you said, it is all about love. Love is all that matters.
Dear God
I know you are all that is, and that our brains are too small to fathom all that is, and that is why the ancients made you into an objective correlative, so that we can attempt to communicate with you. I just want to thank you for the breath of life, and for my children. I’ve had such a hard time explaining you to them because I don’t understand you very well.
When my son was four and started asking questions about you, I told him that you were energy, like wind and lightening and electricity. Obviously, that didn’t work because he is now an atheist. But you must be proud of him for neither killing nor eating any living thing, nor anything that comes from living things, like butter or ice cream. That’s true compassion, isn’t it, and isn’t compassion what you want most from us? We’re all guessing here, and hoping and trying to believe that the magic and mystery that surround us on this beautiful blue planet are signs of your benevolent presence. Thank you for all of it.
I love you, God. —-b
Hi Brenda,
In India, in one of the holy books, it is written that if human beings were shown the full magnitude of God, they would not be able to handle it. In this particular book, they go into all the details and some of it is so contradictory, it made no sense. I was studying with my teacher when I first read that and I remember asking him questions on it. I was amazed at the idea that our brains would not be able to handle the full power of the Divine. It made sense to me because I think there is no way to full comprehend all that is Divine.
So you are right, our brains are too small to fathom all that is and I think there is peace in that, at least for me. By the way, vegans are very cool people, so I think God has no problem with your son!
Hope all is awesome and have a safe journey back home, my dear friend!
Dear God,
As always I want to thank you for a brand new day. Thank you for guiding me, even when my stubborn ways got in the way. Thank you for opening my eyes to how life should truly be lived. Thank you for showing me how to love myself unconditionally. It was a hard road, but we made it through because of you! I love the beauty of this world Father. Although, there is much sickness and sadness there is also a deep beauty in this world. I marvel at the many creations you put before us. Sometimes crying tears of joy at the level of love you hold for us in your heart. It is so very moving!
I love you and I want you to know just how grateful I am to be your daughter. How grateful I am for my family, my daughter, my husband, my talents and every blessing I’ve received.
Thank You
Your Daughter,
Tabitha
.-= Tabitha@ichoosebliss´s last blog ..New Venture in Making A Difference =-.
Hi Tabitha,
Thank you so much for such a heartfelt letter that was filled with such gratitude! I can see why you have a blog called “I Choose Bliss”!
I am with you on that choice too!
Dear God,
I was about to write this letter yesterday when I first saw this post by my dear friend Nadia. But the life which you’ve made for me kept me bit busy at that moment. Sorry about that
Anyway dear god I needed to thank you for bottom of my heart about few things. Thank you very much for giving world’s best dad to me for 10 years. He had to leave when I was 10 but still he proves that he’s the best by molding my life into a proper shape by the memories he left behind about the way he lived. And thanks for giving me the best mom in the world too. How kind you were being to give both of them to me? And god you’ve made our lives bit harder by making our income a bit low and sending us some troubles to deal with. But god I know what your intention was. I know you needed me to be a strong man and that’s why you did them all. So I’m really thankful to you that I’ve learnt so much from the life you’ve gifted to me. I’ve learnt about people. I’ve learnt about how they behave when you are passing a good time and how they turn their back on you when you are passing a bad time. I’ve learnt about the value of hard earned money and fighting life. I call those things as your birthday gifts to me and the most precious gifts I’ve ever received.Because for this 22 years how gained so much experienced that I feel like I’m almost 30 and I’ve become tough enough to deal with any kind of a situation. And I really love the way you’ve taught me to understand about the value of the time by making me busier between following a full time degree , a part time diploma , a part time job and blogging. I know this is the best way to learn. If you’ve made me rich, I wouldn’t have learn these things and I wouldn’t have thankful to you this much.
And after all those things thanks a lot for making me understand the value of the true friends and giving me such wonderful friends in the blogsphere by inspiring me to blog.
And god thanks again for every thing and I’ll write to you again when I achieved my goals. I’m pretty sure by that time you’ll really happy to hear those things from me.
God bless god !
vikum .
.-= vikum´s last blog ..Brick walls are there for a reason =-.
Hi Vikum,
I often say “God Bless God” which makes people laugh. So I am happy that I am not alone in having such a thought.
Thank you for sharing your letter with all of us. It was very touching and your perception of how your life is at this moment is truly a huge blessing. Not many people will be grateful to be in the position of not being rich and yet you see the wisdom in that as well as the beauty in having your father be a part of your life for a short period of time. Not many people think like that and I am so happy that you do see the beauty in it all. You should be very proud of what you have accomplished and who you are! Don’t ever forget that!
Dear Nadia, I am a new follower of your blogs, and am enjoying them very much! I just loved this one so much because I actually felt this morning that i was being called to not suppress my anger and vulnerable feelings from a triggered event that surface.. reminding myself that God can take it and i should just share my heart with him about it… again and again each time it comes up for ‘purification’..even though it’s been let go of a long time ago.. it is a tender spot and my area of development is forever linking back to it at times.. so i can’t ignore it.. It is one of those ‘unsolved’ questions that we live into .. and may never know..
so here goes..
Dear God, this morning you got me.,. or some other energy out there was teasing me from the Universe. I’m torn, i admit i’m broken.
I don’t feel a leader though you’re calling me to be one.. one baby step at a time.
3 weddings in a year.. and as happy as i am.. to be a part of them.. and then just wondering what would’ve happened in my life if ours didn’t fall apart. i dunno, it just makes me so angry sometimes that i was SO vulnerable and the worst thing happened.. its hard now that i’m believing for my ‘next biggest dream’ not to expect to be disappointed again.. and quite honestly i don’t know –i’ve detached from the outcome, and given it to you.. at the same time i’m left wondering and i think i’m okay with what happens next, but it all feels like a universal mystery and while my heart is still healing, and my body is still recovering from the illness last year – i can see that this personal developing and practice of higher consciousness is changing me somehow. I know that you want to bless me, though i still sometimes duck afraid you might hit me or something.. why? i dunno. remember i was that shadow angel who changed. and now you want ‘me’ for some reason up there on stage.. and i feel sometimes ready but other times i just want to hide in the bushes.. if only this passion would stop brewing inside of me.. i almost don’t want to admit it .. but i do like it –being part of something that is so surreal. who me? yeah.
i know the other day you showed me that Moses was the most humble man of all the earth and you took him and made a powerful leader – he also had many doubts.
well i’m sure not as humble as him but i am doubting and vulnerable and scared. and i want to fully live, but not without you. so you’ll have to lead the way and give me strength to know what to say and when to say it and teach me how to listen because sometimes i just get caught up in the craziness of life and all this thinking.
thank you for teaching me how to love myself more. so that i can truly love others purely, divinely and unconditionally. I wish for our world to be a community that comes together in harmony that all may feel safe and experience your true healing- the Spirit within – for that is who we really are, nothing else matters.
Amen.
Hi Jennifer,
I am so happy that this post was of help. I think sometimes we just need to sit down and write a letter to God. I have been doing this for years. When I first started, it was usually a list of demands. Then with time, as I learned to let go and let God, the tone of the letters began to change. We are all works in progress and we are all learning along the way.
The content of your letter is something that I can relate to on some level. It is not easy to feel called to be of service especially when hiding in the bushes feels a whole lot safer. However, usually those who are called, usually do not want to be called. The Universe/God/Force works in weird ways and that is one of them. I have known people with huge egos who wanted to be of service and it never worked because their intention was to glorify their ego. So I am sure that what is happening is because it is meant to be.
Loved the letter – it sounded just like you! I also enjoyed reading all of the wonderful comments.
Here’s something I often wish I’d written to God. It says it so much better than I could:
.-= janice´s last blog ..Holidaying at Home: The East Neuk of Fife =-.
Hi Janice,
Who wrote that piece that you shared with us? It is very beautiful. I get extra happy just reading it.
I just ventured out of the home for the first time in about a week and it was like seeing the world for the first time all over again. So this poem/letter really resonated with how I am feeling at the moment. Very cool!